| Suicide is nothing but an attempt at
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| | Thorazine and two or more bottles of
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| control. A selfish, manipulative method
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| | cough syrup. I then went to a back room,
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| of trying to get what you want. I know
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| | put a tub under my arm and cut myself
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| more reasons exists for suicide but for
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| | deep enough to bleed to death. I have to
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| me it was the ultimate act of
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| | laugh today because I remember thinking,
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| selfishness.
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| | "ok Bob your sister is going to be really
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| The day was bright. My mind was so dark.
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| | mad if you bleed on her carpet. So, I
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| I was drinking, taking drugs, and my
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| | took time to put a bucket under my arm.
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| wife was divorcing me.
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| | Well, things didn't turn out the way I
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| I was living with my sister in Gulfport,
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| | had planned. My brother in law came home
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| MS. and I just wanted to go home or die.
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| | early and found me and called an
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| My mind was in such a state of confusion
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| | ambulance, I lived.
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| and turmoil that death seemed like an
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| | Today, I will never give up again. Since
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| answer. Yet, it was just another way of
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| | that moment in time years ago, many
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| saying I will control my life, no matter
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| | things have changed in my life. I found
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| what.
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| | a way out of addiction. I found a God
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| My wife's dad had died. I didn't really
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| | who brings me joy, peace, and comfort in
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| care if he died or not. I just wanted
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| | times of troubles. Oh, I have wanted to
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| what I wanted and when I wanted it. I
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| | die many times. And, I have tried to
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| desperately wanted my wife to let me come
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| | kill myself several times. And, they say
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| home and she was dead set on not allowing
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| | a person who attempts suicide will one
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| me back in the house. Today I understand
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| | day actually finish the job. Today, I
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| why, and appreciate her decision, but at
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| | know suicide is not the answer.
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| the time, I hated her and I hated me and
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| | Suicide is not the solution. My solution
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| I would show her who was boss.
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| | has been a willingness to trust God. In
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| After the funeral my wife and son,
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| | a jail cell in Hattiesburg, Mississippi,
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| stopped by and I began my begging. "Let
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| | I turned my will and life over to Jesus
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| me come home. Please I beg you, I am
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| | Christ. He has worked for me. For me,
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| going to die if I don't get to come
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| | He was the only thing that did work. I
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| home." I pleaded, cried, pleaded, and
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| | needed a complete transformation of my
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| cried some more but the answer was the
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| | mind. He is doing for me what no human
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| same. "No Bob you can't come home." My
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| | power can do or ever could do. Let me
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| wife said repeatedly.
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| | encourage you to try calling on His name.
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| I turned to my young son and ask, "Wesley
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| | Surrender your will and power to His
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| do you want daddy to come home?"
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| | power. If you are seriously thinking
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| He said, "No Dad I don't want you to come
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| | about suicide, you need to get on the
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| home."
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| | phone, right now, and dial 911. Tell
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| I died! I had tried everything I knew to
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| | some one how you feel. Call the police.
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| do but now even my own son didn't want to
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| | Call someone and let him or her know what
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| be around me. They left and I made the
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| | you are thinking. I promise life will
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| decision to kill myself. I will show
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| | get better. It did for me. It took time
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| them. I will make them hurt as much as I
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| | for me to learn how to live life on life
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| do. Self will run riot even to the point
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| | terms but I will not give up again. If
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| of death.
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| | you can't call someone or will not call
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| I went in the house took a full bottle of
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| | anyone write me. My email address is
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| blood pressure pills, a bottle of
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| | God bless you and He will.
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