Stroke, Prostate Cancer, Laughter and the Melting Mood

My recovery from a stroke suffered in 2001 seemeduncontrollability that plagues me. Technically, the
glacially slow while it was taking place. Now, howeverIsymptom may result from lesions in the internal
feel almost completely recovered, and the difficultiescapsule and thalamus, basal ganglion, hypothalamus
with my right hand and arm and the speech problemsand ventral pons or from a cortical infarct in the
are like dim recollections of something that happenedterritory supplied by the superior division of the middle
decades ago.I still have difficulty with cuff buttons oncerebral artery.Such laughter is often associated with
starched cuffs. My handwriting is slow. My singingweeping. I have not done much blubbering since my
voice is on furlough and recent attempts to throw astroke, but I did some research on these matters In
ball have been errant embarrassments, but I haven'trecent weeks I have discovered in myself new or at
taken the time to practice in order to restore either ofleast altered emotions. I am not merely getting in touch
those activities to previous levels of ability. Still, my golfwith my feminine side but being overwhelmed by it.
game is pretty much back to where it was. I amAbout a month ago I was injected with a
exultant at having escaped the permanent serioustime-released dose of Lupron, an activator of female
disabilities that are visited on so many strokehormones. Each day I also ingest one tablet of
victims.One persistent symptom is pathological laughter.Casodex, which along with the injection serves to limit
When I think of something funny or just vaguely silly ormy ordinary testosterone production, thereby shrinking
ironic, I crack up so badly that I am unable to speak formy hyperplastic prostate gland and stopping the
a minute or two. I never, previous to stroke, exhibiteddevelopment of the malignancy contained therein. The
such idiotic laughter. On the plus side, my hysterics candoctors told me I could expect weight gain, loss of
be contagious. In social situations I often manage to getmuscle mass, diminution of energy, hot flashes, possible
my companions laughing with nearly the samedevelopment of breast tissue and loss of body hair.